LOVE IS CALLING!!!

I just arrived at IHOP (international house of PRAYER not pancakes) for a 3 month internship. Prior to arrival, I went to Sarasota, FLA for an IRIS Global conference with Heidi Baker, Rolland Baker, and Mel Tari. It was, as always, AMAZING! I got hit with some hard teachings like: anything can be an idol. Prayer, intercession, life plans, His presences, manifestations, etc.. etc... Anything that comes before Jesus Christ and The Father can be an idol. That rocked my world.
I also learned that love looks like something. Like loving me would be letting me be right because God created me to be an advocate and it can't be helped that I have a desire to argue, because God made me that way. On the other hand, me loving someone looks like me letting go of having to be right... OUCH. That hurts, but love isn't easy. It costs you everything, it really does. We have to lay down ALL of your rights to ourselves. Our right to be offended, angry, right, etc... I am not my own because I have been called by love. I have been called to be radical lover of Jesus. To go to the poor and the dark, scary places you have to be completely submitted, having no rights to your own life, because that life is now the Lords.
God is preparing me in this way. I know it beyond a doubt. I am so excited to follow this path that is laid before me.
I get to love the unlovable and therefor LOVE JESUS! I was made to be a lover of His children. I know that I was born for such a time as this. I am going to be applying to the IRIS harvest school that starts in June. I am not sure how this will work out, but I am trusting my Daddy (Father if you prefer) to take care of me. (FYI I say daddy because I recently realized that I was really afraid of that side of God and for me it is a very intimate term from me, his daughter, to him my daddy.) I am His little girl and He always takes care of me! :) I am so glad that I can just curl up in His big, big lap and lay there, resting in Him and letting Him take care of it all. :) SO if you want to help at all, let me know! I am completely open to whatever that may look like. After my internship at IHOP I plan on getting a job so that I can pay for my trip :) So just pray about whatever help the Father is calling you to do! Whether that is praying, helping me sell some of my stuff, buying something from me for more than it's worth, etc... whatever! :) I love all of you guys!!! I really do! So here I GO!!! Laying it all DOWN!!! WOOHOO!!! :)

LOVE LOVE LOVE