Preparation

So, since my last blog I dropped the IHOP internship, got a job at a great chiropratic office, made some friends, found a church, AND started a more vigorous work out regime. I have been feeling over and over again that God is preparing me to go. I am FINALLY getting the right treatment for my body that I should've had after my car accident in 2010! This Dr. has found some serious problems wrong that she can help heal and improve that none of the other Dr's found! Also, the massage therapist there has found other things as well that she is going to be working on! God is working on my physical body so I can be completely healthy when I go! YAY! My job is also very intense. I do a million one different things through out the day and it all requires a lot of focus. It also has a huge learning curve to it and I feel that God is showing me that I don't have to be perfect at everything. It has been a trip. I enjoy the church I am going to: Praise Chapel Kansas City. They are online, so look them up.
I am also going to be learning French and Portuguese, so if anyone has a Rosetta stone I could borrow or books (anything) that would be GREAT! I might also be learning Swahili as well. One of my friends also told me about an African church in Kansas City, KS, so I am going to check that out too! I am so excited to learn as much as I can now BEFORE I get there! God has been continually speaking to me about being as prepared as possible when I go so it will be easier to assimilate etc... This feels like a dream right now. I feel so close to where God has me going, but at the same time a real patience and methodical slowness at the same time.
One thing that has been happening as well is I am learning about how God has created me. I am think very analytically, which is why when people are joking about something I can't laugh at it because I analyze if it really was funny or hurtful etc... This will all be helpful. I also like to learn things in steps and really can pick up on just about anything if it is broken down and shown to me. I am really just loving the place that the Lord has set aside for me here. I mean, I have lived here 32 days and this was my 2nd week at work!
I have also been feeling how important it is to lay aside ideas and expectations of people, places, and things. I can sometimes be a bit rigid in my thinking because my analytic mind, but God has been working on me heart in that area. It is quite humbling as well to have the God of the universe basically tell you that you know nothing aside from him... Yeah, not fun. The wisdom that I think I have, as I mentioned before, is nothing. It is literally filthy rags to him and won't help anyone. He is tearing me down in order to build me up. He is breaking these things in my life so that in my brokenness he may be lifted high! And while I feel the breaking in this area, he is lifting me up in other areas. He has been speaking death to things that are not of him and calling into life things that are from him! Isn't that BEAUTIFUL! Don't we serve an awesome, loving, powerful, wise, and passionate God?!?!?!? I just love him. I want to pour my life out to him! Won't you join me in this journey? It's so amazingly wonderful to step outside the rigidness of our own thinking, allowing him to strip it away, and be who we were made to be! COME OUT MY PEOPLE! COME OUT OF YOUR RULES, REGULATIONS, AND COMFORTS! FOLLOW ME! That is his call to me and to you! It's AMAZING! We can so easily put God in a box, but not only him.... We put ourselves in boxes all the time and it crushes us. We aren't made to do this or that etc... we are made to just follow him. He will lead us to so many places in our lives if we just look to him and trust. Its called blind faith because not only do we not see him, but we don't see where he is leading us... Where his plans are taking us. He gives us small pictures and glimpses, of course, but from there he leads us through our relationship with him. Isn't that BEAUTIFUL! We get to have a relationship with our creator! He doesn't just say go and do this. He wants to talk to him about it... He wants us to discuss it and wait for the right time. He wants us to work it out with him. I am just jumping, leaping, and dancing over this with him! Life is SO EXCITING WITH HIM! I LOVE BEING IN A SEASON OF PREPARATION! YAY!!! SOON AND VERY SOON I WILL GO, BUT FOR NOW I WAIT ON HIM!